Beyond Fear and Borders: A Missionary Journey in South Sudan - Testimony of Father Christy John - Pastoral Programme Administrator

“Even in the darkest moments of South Sudan’s struggle, I remain because hope must have witnesses.”

A Missionary Shaped by Conflict

My journey as a missionary in South Sudan is deeply connected to my own life story. I come from a country that has experienced years of civil war and suffering. The pain of conflict, the uncertainty of life, and the long shadows that war leaves on society are not unfamiliar to me.

Because of this background, I believed I had some understanding of what it meant to live and work in a country affected by conflict. Yet when I arrived in February 2020 to join the Solidarity with South Sudan Pastoral Service Team in Juba, I soon realized that the situation here carries its own complexity and challenges.

South Sudan is a young nation still searching for stability and unity after decades of struggle. The wounds of war, tribal divisions, economic hardship, and fragile institutions shape the daily reality of the people.

My “Baptism” into South Sudan

Only a few months after my arrival, in May 2020, I experienced what I often call my “baptism into South Sudan.” While travelling on a motorbike in Juba, I was suddenly attacked by street boys who robbed me of my phone and money.

It was a frightening experience, but it also gave me a direct encounter with the insecurity that many people here face every day. In that moment I realized more deeply the vulnerability that shapes ordinary life in this country.

Soon after, our team was entrusted with the administration and management of the Good Shepherd Peace Centre, a place dedicated to formation, reconciliation, and peacebuilding. Taking up this responsibility required difficult decisions, including restructuring staff. One former employee reacted by filing a court case against us, accusing us of stealing his money.

In a context where legal systems are fragile and unpredictable, this was an extremely stressful experience. It reminded me how vulnerable missionaries can be when working in environments where institutions are still developing.

Living with Constant Uncertainty

The broader political and social context of South Sudan often brings a sense of instability. Political tensions, corruption, weak systems of accountability, and tribal divisions continue to affect many aspects of life.

As missionaries who travel frequently across different dioceses for pastoral programs, we also encounter practical challenges. At airports, checkpoints, or even within the city, we are sometimes stopped by individuals claiming to represent security or immigration authorities. Even when our documents are valid, accusations can be made simply to demand money.

Such experiences are emotionally exhausting and sometimes intimidating. They create moments of fear and tension that missionaries must constantly navigate.

The ongoing conflict and tribal violence in different parts of the country also affect our work. News of killings or clashes between communities deeply disturbs us and sometimes disrupts our pastoral activities. These realities can bring moments of discouragement and emotional fatigue.

Strength in Missionary Vocation

Despite these challenges, I continue this mission with conviction.

What sustains me is the spirit of my missionary vocation and the formation I received from my Claretian Congregation. Our founder, St. Anthony Mary Claret, inspired us with the words: “My spirit is for the whole world.”

These words remind me that God’s mission has no borders. Mission invites us to go beyond our comfort zones and serve where the need is greatest.

Our missionary prayer also reminds us that difficulties should not discourage us but rather strengthen our commitment. Every challenge becomes an opportunity to deepen our faith and grow in compassion.

The Strength of Community

Another great source of encouragement is the life we share within the Solidarity with South Sudan community.

Priests, sisters, and lay missionaries from different congregations, cultures, and countries live and serve together. In a society often divided by tribal identities, this shared life becomes a powerful witness that unity across cultures is possible.

Our common prayer, shared mission, and mutual support sustain us during difficult moments.

Hope that Sustains the Mission

Over time, I have come to see that every challenge I encounter in South Sudan is also shaping my own missionary journey. The struggles, uncertainties, and even the moments of fear have become part of a deeper process of growth.

Despite everything, serving the people of South Sudan brings a profound sense of peace and purpose. Accompanying communities in their search for healing, reconciliation, and hope is a privilege.

In the midst of many difficulties, the resilience and faith of the people here continue to inspire me. Their courage to keep moving forward despite hardship reminds me that hope is still alive.

And that is why I remain.

Because in places where suffering is great, the presence of those who stand with the people becomes a powerful sign that hope has not been lost.

Father Christy John, CMF